le plan

one day at a timeI like to have a plan.  Self admittedly, I’m not the most organized person in the world.  Yet, I like to know what’s ahead.  I can go with the flow.  I can be impulsive.  But I’d rather know what to expect.  At least in a skeleton format.  Give me a guide, please.

When I was a child, a woman who was part of our church sang a song quite frequently.  Her husband played electric guitar and she would belt out, “One Day at a Time.”  Perhaps you’ve heard it.  It was made famous in the southern gospel arena by Cristy Lane.  The lyrics are something like this:

One day at a time, sweet Jesus.

That’s all I’m asking from You.

Just give me the strength, to do everyday, what I have to do.

Yesterday’s gone, and tomorrow might never be mine.

[and on and on]

I have an extremely hard time living the words of that corny little song.  I want to know what’s going to happen.  I want to plan ahead.  I want to know dates when my son plans to come home from college next school year and whether he wants to eat enchiladas or home made pizza during those visits.  I want to know what book I’m going to read after the one I’m currently reading and the one after that.  I want to know what the weather will be like this weekend as well as what we’re going to eat for dinner on Monday.  I want to know when my parents will be able to visit and what my daughter wants for Christmas, this year and 2021.

Am I crazy?  Probably not yet.  I just have a really, really hard time simply being content today.  I want to enjoy the moment, focus on the now.  It just seems so difficult.  And I’m not sure why.

secret of the universe
I’m sorry but I don’t understand how to read my cells.

Life is a journey.  I believe that.  It constantly changes and we have to adapt.  And we can miss a bunch if we’re looking too far ahead.  The secret?  Relax, I suppose.  Enjoy today.  But how, how does one do that?  I feel like if I knew, I’d know the secrets of the universe.  Are there people out there who can actually do it?  Live just one day at a time?  Maybe so, but can they do it for more than a week?

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