Upon a Sunny Day

You don’t have to have it all figured out today.

Thank you! Thank you so much for that reminder. I often live as though I should. Should have it all figured out. Should know the answers. But sometimes I don’t even know the questions. Yesterday I heard someone say the above quote, or at least that’s what I remember her saying, and it lightened my load a bit.

Time is strange in that in many ways it flies by. Minutes, hours, days pass. It’s hard to believe it’s already Monday again. Yet in other ways, time passes slowly. Waiting for an answer? Waiting for change? Waiting for a decision to be made regarding your life? Then the clock barely moves. Considering the amount of time, actual years, people wait for things….it’s crazy and seemingly unbearable.

The not knowing can be the worst. What is going to happen? How will this all play out? Is there a reason for this, or is it all simply random?

It seems the big, huge, incredibly large [yes, I know big, huge and large are similar in meaning] important, life altering things we long for don’t just appear. One isn’t handed a full ride college scholarship out of the blue. Work has to be done in preparation. A stranger will not, chances are, knock on one’s door and announce he’s the groom, let’s head to the wedding.

Sometimes what we face is overwhelming. Even the seemingly small things. Like completing our taxes. Or cleaning out our closet. Goals and lists and all the tools the ultra organized and successful people utilize are recommended. And while those are lovely items to help us out, I pause to remember I don’t have to have it all figured out today.

Sure, there are deadlines. April 15. I’m supposed to get lunch together for eight people on Friday. But I don’t have to have a full fledged plan of attack today.

I’m one of those drifters. Not in my living arrangements. But in personality types. I go back and forth between what I label Sorority Girl and The Mess.

Though I was never in a sorority [well, that’s not true….I was in a music sorority during the year I minored in music….but my shift in college majors (3x, thanks) only goes to prove my point of the two personality types….anyway….back on track], I exhibit some of the prime characteristics of a sorority type. #1 my mother was a Chi Omega. #2 I believe the gift wrap is nearly as important as the gift [in other words, presentation matters]. #3 I adore Martha Stewart. #4 I clean my bathroom once a week or I feel quite unkempt. #5 I make lists.

Now, I likewise exhibit traits of what I call The Mess. #1 I generally lose the lists I make. #2 I love to wrap gifts, but often have no tape in the house in order to complete the project. #3 I generally have no clue as to what to do with my hair. #4 I procrastinate. #5 I have never hit it off so well with males in a fraternity [which probably goes back to the fact I don’t know what to do with my hair].

Anyway, I think you get my point. I start things and don’t always finish. I have dreams, but don’t always know how to make them reality. I like to cook, but my experiments in culinary arts don’t always go as hoped. Basically, I’m human. And I don’t have everything figured out today. I might not have it figured out tomorrow. I’ve found though, that life has a way of happening and when push comes to shove, I make the decisions and move on along.