all I’ve got

I’ve had the conversation with my daughter numerous times. I tell her I believe the work I do is important. Imperative. And it’s fine that it’s not on the front lines. That I’m not loud or in someones face. That I feel my work is to be there in the day-to-day. In the neighborhoods. With … More all I’ve got

sometimes I forget

Sometimes I forget about rain. And then it rains. Like right now. It’s currently raining. A soft rain. Not associated with a storm. It rarely rained in my hometown. So all those years, growing up, I never became familiar with rain. It was always a luxury. A special treat. No one owned an umbrella. When … More sometimes I forget

nearly perfect

There are days when I wake up and can hardly imagine getting out of my bed. Small exaggeration, yes. But I don’t want to get up. A slight headache. The knowledge it’s going to be a long day. Probably won’t be done until 8pm. Which for some people is normal but for me it seems late. … More nearly perfect

twenty two

Hello reader! Today is my son Jamie’s birthday. He’s 22, which you most likely gleaned from the title of this entry. So, like I have in the past, I wrote a letter in honor of the day. Dear James, I don’t know if you realize it, but this time of year not only marks your … More twenty two

wait here

Last week I posted an entry regarding letting something go. Well, I’ve decided maybe not. Maybe not let go. First of all, well….there’s a difference between letting go of a situation completely [as in finalization] and surrender. Finalization is, quite obviously, final. Surrender is release. Realizing something is out of one’s control. I’ve come to … More wait here

of my heart

Head versus heart. What logically makes sense versus what brings me joy. It’s interesting people often share they want the best for a person. And by that I think what they’re really saying is I want what makes the most sense. The best scenario. The most fruitful outcome. From their point of view, of course. Wisdom … More of my heart

filed away

I filed it in the safe.  Do most people have alphabetized file folders in their safe? First I cleaned it.  Then I placed it in an envelope.  I sealed it.  Then I filed it at what I considered the appropriate place. Maybe I should have handled it more ceremoniously.  I was alone.  I didn’t give … More filed away

I found myself

I found myself pleased with a realization.  As I left the cathedral yesterday morning, the place I’ve been worshiping these last few months, I found myself to be happy.  While I realize one should, under good and normal circumstances leave one’s place of worship in a cheerful mood, I have had a dark shadow fall … More I found myself