all I’ve got

I’ve had the conversation with my daughter numerous times. I tell her I believe the work I do is important. Imperative. And it’s fine that it’s not on the front lines. That I’m not loud or in someones face. That I feel my work is to be there in the day-to-day. In the neighborhoods. With … More all I’ve got

sometimes I forget

Sometimes I forget about rain. And then it rains. Like right now. It’s currently raining. A soft rain. Not associated with a storm. It rarely rained in my hometown. So all those years, growing up, I never became familiar with rain. It was always a luxury. A special treat. No one owned an umbrella. When … More sometimes I forget

nearly perfect

There are days when I wake up and can hardly imagine getting out of my bed. Small exaggeration, yes. But I don’t want to get up. A slight headache. The knowledge it’s going to be a long day. Probably won’t be done until 8pm. Which for some people is normal but for me it seems late. … More nearly perfect

twenty two

Hello reader! Today is my son Jamie’s birthday. He’s 22, which you most likely gleaned from the title of this entry. So, like I have in the past, I wrote a letter in honor of the day. Dear James, I don’t know if you realize it, but this time of year not only marks your … More twenty two

look around

Time, time, time See what’s become of me While I looked around for my possibilities I was so hard to please But look around Leaves are brown And the sky is a hazy shade of winter Hear the Salvation Army band Down by the riverside’s Bound to be a better ride Than what you’ve got … More look around

wait here

Last week I posted an entry regarding letting something go. Well, I’ve decided maybe not. Maybe not let go. First of all, well….there’s a difference between letting go of a situation completely [as in finalization] and surrender. Finalization is, quite obviously, final. Surrender is release. Realizing something is out of one’s control. I’ve come to … More wait here

of my heart

Head versus heart. What logically makes sense versus what brings me joy. It’s interesting people often share they want the best for a person. And by that I think what they’re really saying is I want what makes the most sense. The best scenario. The most fruitful outcome. From their point of view, of course. Wisdom … More of my heart

day 2

Opposites.  Yesterday to today. A day spent with my son, who I love.  Yesterday featured an actual van Gogh and a renowned guitarist. Today?  None of the above.  Today was the typical Monday, like the song.  Rain, annoyances, some sadness sprinkled in. My advent reading today, day 2?  Opposites as well.  Wait.  Seek.  Unlike yesterday, … More day 2

filed away

I filed it in the safe.  Do most people have alphabetized file folders in their safe? First I cleaned it.  Then I placed it in an envelope.  I sealed it.  Then I filed it at what I considered the appropriate place. Maybe I should have handled it more ceremoniously.  I was alone.  I didn’t give … More filed away