seeking the perhaps

A small feat.  A challenge only realized privately.  No one has to know.  Chances are no one except very few would appreciate. All the same, I managed it.  Without forethought.  Without fear.  Accomplishment?  Maybe not. Yet maybe. The words echo in my brain. I go to seek a great perhaps. Thank you Francois Rabelais via … More seeking the perhaps

toxic

A while back my daughter and I decided to stop using home cleaning products with chemicals. At least as much as possible for us.  So, when we ran out of bathroom and toilet bowl cleaners, we purchased a large bottle of vinegar, Murphy’s Oil Soap and Borax.  Now I mix up our own cleaners, avoiding … More toxic

the next day

I’ve come to realize there is a next day.  When you’re in a struggle, it can seem that you’re barely surviving today.  It is nearly impossible to comprehend that there is anything beyond nightfall. That the sun actually comes up the next morning is a surprise.  At the very best, it’s day to day.  One … More the next day

mother to daughter

I wrote the following as a Mother’s Day gift to my own mother:   Mother to daughter. Lessons taught. Words of wisdom – life is what you make it. I thought I was past the lessons.  Old enough.  Steady. Then one day, no. What I thought, wasn’t. I needed friends, and thankfully they were there.  … More mother to daughter

filed away

I filed it in the safe.  Do most people have alphabetized file folders in their safe? First I cleaned it.  Then I placed it in an envelope.  I sealed it.  Then I filed it at what I considered the appropriate place. Maybe I should have handled it more ceremoniously.  I was alone.  I didn’t give … More filed away

I found myself

I found myself pleased with a realization.  As I left the cathedral yesterday morning, the place I’ve been worshiping these last few months, I found myself to be happy.  While I realize one should, under good and normal circumstances leave one’s place of worship in a cheerful mood, I have had a dark shadow fall … More I found myself